Today I was unpacking a bag of stuff that came down from our old house and I found another of Leah’s “love notes”.
She wrote it to me in 2012, when I was very upset about something that had happened.
In it she quotes Psalm 9:9-10
“The Lord defends those who suffer; he defends them in times of trouble. Those who know the Lord trust Him, because He will not leave those who come to Him.”
Then she writes some beautiful words of encouragement, regarding the situation that I was distressed about.
Of course, when I found this note, all I could do was cry and sob my heart out.
How I miss Leah’s love notes, her timely hugs and her words of encouragement.
Yet, I know it is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.
I am also mindful of how blessed I am to have a husband and four children.
I am blessed that I am loved.
I am mindful of how blessed we are as a family, to have had Leah in our midst for sixteen precious years and 16 days.
I am so blessed by each little note that I find, that reminds me of Leah – not that I need reminding – and the part that she played in our family.
She was my flesh and blood, the one whom I carried in my womb for nine months, felt every kick, birthed into this world, fed at my breast, gazed into her Moses Basket to check she was still breathing, shopped for, cooked for, loved with a Mother’s love and reluctantly handed back to the One who loves her with a perfect love.
Parenting brings so very many challenges – no one ever said it was going to be easy. I guess I just didn’t know it was going to be this hard.
How easy it would be to give up on life, to drown in this pool of tears.
However, just as Leah’s response to her situation was “God has a plan for my life“, so it is mine.
My hopes and prayers could be summed up in the words of 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (NIV)
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”