You Give and Take Away

You Give and Take Away

A friend recently introduced me to the Bible readings Jesus Calling by Sarah Young – I’ve been using them for a few weeks now and I’ve been so blessed when I read them each morning.


This morning I read the following and I was very challenged by what I read:

“The best response to losses or thwarted hopes is praise: The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. Remember that all good things—your possessions, your family and friends, your health and abilities, your time—are gifts from Me. Instead of feeling entitled to all these blessings, respond to them with gratitude. Be prepared to let go of anything I take from you, but never let go of My hand!”

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23–24

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.
—1 Peter 5:6

And he said… “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
Job 1:21 nkjv

Initially I thought “This can’t apply to someone like me whose child has died.” But then if you look at Job in the Bible, his 7 sons and 3 daughters had all been killed when he is quoted as having uttered these words.

Normally when I’m having my shower in the morning I listen to “Worn” by Tenth Avenue North on repeat, because that’s how I mostly feel inside:

“I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left”

However this morning as I prepared to have a shower, my hand selected a different song from my iPad playlist – “Blessed Be Your Name” by Matt Redman

“Blessed be Your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s ‘all as it should be’
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I’ll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name”

Normally when I’m driving along I end up crying, because Leah and I spent so much time in the car together going to and from hospital appointments. However this morning as I drove to work, I found myself with a thankful heart – thankful for the 16 years that Leah graced our lives.

Thankful for who Leah was, for all the love that she brought into our lives, for all the happy times we shared, for everything she taught us.

Yes I’m still heartbroken, yes I wish we still had her alive and well, but how blessed we were to have had Leah in our lives for those 16 years.

We are very blessed with each of our four children.

This is Leah and her sisters in 2011, their brother is very camera shy!