I was tidying up this evening and putting away Miriam’s end of year school report. This entailed bringing out the folder in which I have stored all of the children’s school reports since they started school.
I knew it would be painful, but I couldn’t stop myself. I started reading through Leah’s school reports in reverse chronological order.
Leah’s Limavady High School reports spoke of an A grade student, quiet, hardworking and enthusiastic. I felt very sad, thinking of what might have been.
However, it wasn’t until I started reading her Primary School reports, that my emotional dam broke completely.
Leah’s P7 report, spoke of an avid reader, a fluent writer and a delightful child who was caring and mature. When I had read her P6 report, I had to stop reading, I could no longer see the pages. Leah’s P6 teacher talked about Leah’s happiness coming through in her singing and of how Leah had a smile for everyone she met.
It left me wishing that it was still 2008 and that Leah was back in the Ballykelly School Choir, singing her wee heart out.
Unfortunately we don’t have a roll back option on our lives. No matter how hard or how much we wish for it. We can only go forward.
Many, painful, difficult things happen in life and we have to find a way to go on.
It isn’t easy.
The love of family and friends certainly helps.
Sometimes though, even friends and family can be busy or have other stuff going on.
The Bible tells us that ‘we have a friend who sticks closer than a brother’ Proverbs 18:24
I believe that friend is the Lord Jesus Christ, who died on the cross for us, so that our sins could be forgiven. He rose again and He lives forever to intercede with the Father for us. Hebrews 7:25