Grief really is about the Small Stuff

Leah at Grianan Fort in Donegal in 2011

Grief really is about the small stuff.

Yesterday I went to North-West Memorials in Muff, Co. Donegal, to order Leah’s headstone for her grave.

I was there for over an hour as we discussed every aspect of what Leah’s headstone will look like.

I had been there previously and taken photos of headstones that I thought were suitable, then taken these photos home to discuss with the rest of the family. Together as a family we agreed on the wording and the design of the headstone for Leah’s grave.

I felt very sad of course, but I was able to keep my emotions under control, both while driving to and from Donegal and while talking to the lovely man in the memorial shop.

Today as I was searching on YouTube for a song that I couldn’t quite remember the name of, I happened upon this song that Leah learned at Primary School and sang constantly around the house and in the car, once upon a time.

I was immediately reduced to a blubbering wreck.

My heart aches with longing for the girl whose smile, laughter and singing, brightened our lives.

I JUST WANNA BE A SHEEP

Chorus
I just wanna be a sheep
Baa, baa, baa, baa
I just wanna be a sheep
Baa, baa, baa, baa
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
I just wanna be a sheep
Baa, baa, baa, baa,

Verse 1
Don’t wanna be a goat…nope
Don’t wanna be a goat…nope
Haven’t got any hope…nope
Don’t wanna be a goat…nope

Verse 2
Don’t wanna be a hypocrite
Don’t wanna be a hypocrite
‘Cause they’re not hip to it
Don’t wanna be a hypocrite

Verse 3
Don’t wanna be a Pharisee
Don’t wanna be a Pharisee
‘Cause they’re not fair you see
Don’t wanna be a Pharisee

Verse 4
Don’t wanna be a Sadducee
Don’t wanna be a Sadducee
‘Cause they’re so sad you see
Don’t wanna be a Sadducee

Verse 5
Just wanna be a child of God
Just wanna be a child of God
Walkin’ the same path He trod
Just wanna be a child of God

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