Grief really is about the small stuff.
Yesterday I went to North-West Memorials in Muff, Co. Donegal, to order Leah’s headstone for her grave.
I was there for over an hour as we discussed every aspect of what Leah’s headstone will look like.
I had been there previously and taken photos of headstones that I thought were suitable, then taken these photos home to discuss with the rest of the family. Together as a family we agreed on the wording and the design of the headstone for Leah’s grave.
I felt very sad of course, but I was able to keep my emotions under control, both while driving to and from Donegal and while talking to the lovely man in the memorial shop.
Today as I was searching on YouTube for a song that I couldn’t quite remember the name of, I happened upon this song that Leah learned at Primary School and sang constantly around the house and in the car, once upon a time.
I was immediately reduced to a blubbering wreck.
My heart aches with longing for the girl whose smile, laughter and singing, brightened our lives.
I JUST WANNA BE A SHEEP
Chorus
I just wanna be a sheep
Baa, baa, baa, baa
I just wanna be a sheep
Baa, baa, baa, baa
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
I just wanna be a sheep
Baa, baa, baa, baa,
Verse 1
Don’t wanna be a goat…nope
Don’t wanna be a goat…nope
Haven’t got any hope…nope
Don’t wanna be a goat…nope
Verse 2
Don’t wanna be a hypocrite
Don’t wanna be a hypocrite
‘Cause they’re not hip to it
Don’t wanna be a hypocrite
Verse 3
Don’t wanna be a Pharisee
Don’t wanna be a Pharisee
‘Cause they’re not fair you see
Don’t wanna be a Pharisee
Verse 4
Don’t wanna be a Sadducee
Don’t wanna be a Sadducee
‘Cause they’re so sad you see
Don’t wanna be a Sadducee
Verse 5
Just wanna be a child of God
Just wanna be a child of God
Walkin’ the same path He trod
Just wanna be a child of God
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